Progress and Plans

 I've been on the thyroid medication for over a week. I lost a decent amount of weight for the first time in months. Hopefully this means the medication is working for me. I really needed some stuff to change.

Speaking of change, I'm going to start a new project. It's health related and may end up being scary, painful, and expensive. I'm not sure yet. I just know I need to make some changed happen. 

Bad Weather Again

There is snow on the ground and some patches of ice. It's very, very cold. It's supposed to be even colder in the morning and I'm not looking forward to it.

We're trying our best to just stay warm and keep the cats warm. I worry for the strays but they're too feral for us to help much. At least they have the barn and the neighborhood abandoned house to stay in.

Appointment

I talked with my doctor yesterday. She thinks my thyroid is low and wanted it checked again. I had another blood draw and now we'll wait and see. 

I mean, the last thing I want is to deal with MORE medication, but at the same time, I am dealing with some severe fatigue lately. I think if it is my thyroid, that at least is something that can be managed. 

Outside of that, the discussion was fine. We're both pleased with what my mental health is looking like right now so that's not a problem. It's a step in the right direction.

Struggle

I have a call with my doctor on Tuesday. We're to discuss my meds and what needs to be changed or kept the same. I think my mental health has improved some, but other aspects are still pretty awful. I'll see what we can do about that. 

It's supposed to get cold again this week. We might get snow or ice or nothing. Hopefully nothing. I really don't want to deal with slickery. I'm too apt to fall. 

Quiet

In dark times, it's so easy to become quiet. People get scared. People get overwhelmed. People get tired of having to fight.  I get that. I understand that. Sometimes, I live that.

So what to do about it? I'm not sure. It's so easy to retreat when things get scary. It's so easy to not reach out to others. It's easy to just ball up inside yourself and try to ride it out. 

I don't have answers here. I just know that things feel so massive right now and I'm not sure what to do about. 

End of the Month

This month really sped by. I'm not sure what I even did during most of it. I know it snowed. I know we got the new stuff into the house. That's about it. I need to make some calls and talk to some people.

One of the calls I have scheduled is my next doctor's appointment. We'll be talking on the 11th about my progress with my mental health. I think things are going better, but I still have some concerns I want to bring up to her.

Overall, January wasn't bad this year. Hopefully, February will be better.

A Busy Day

Our furniture was delivered! It's very nice and taller than we expected. My roommate is tall and long-legged, so the higher furniture is good for him.

It was A LOT to make this happen. We had to save up the money for it and then wait about two months for it to actually get here. Then there was the process of moving the old stuff out and the new stuff in. Thankfully we had people to help with that. 

Anyway, I'm very pleased. The old couch was in ruins and no one was comfortable on it. The old chair was just about to the point of never sitting up well anymore. Now both are replaced and look very nice.

I am kind of sad that the old furniture is gone. Both pieces were bought by my grandmother and now that's more of her things out of the house. I still have the blanket chest, the clock, and the big mirror though. I'm happy I have those with me.