Not Easy

I went to my family's holiday gathering. Overall, it was alright. Yet, whenever I come home, I always feel like crying. I feel unsafe, even though I know I was safe. I'm not sure why I feel this way but I do. I'm glad I'm home. Maybe I just spend too much time at home. I'm glad I'm safe. Even though I wasn't in any danger. I'm glad I'm not panicking now.