Loss

Today my best friend and I drove around the area to enjoy her new car. It's pretty great. It's the newest car I've ever been in.

We went down a lot of backroads that we used to travel as kids. In some ways that was nice, but in others, it was hurtful. There are a lot of changes.

The biggest change is that I finally saw the vacant lot where my grandparents' house used to be. Like I told my best friend, that house was the first place I ever felt safe and now it was gone. That hurt a lot.

I'm still processing this loss. I mean, I thought I had. The house has been gone for years now. Still, it's the first time I've actually seen it. It's a lot.