Struggle

I have a call with my doctor on Tuesday. We're to discuss my meds and what needs to be changed or kept the same. I think my mental health has improved some, but other aspects are still pretty awful. I'll see what we can do about that. 

It's supposed to get cold again this week. We might get snow or ice or nothing. Hopefully nothing. I really don't want to deal with slickery. I'm too apt to fall. 

Quiet

In dark times, it's so easy to become quiet. People get scared. People get overwhelmed. People get tired of having to fight.  I get that. I understand that. Sometimes, I live that.

So what to do about it? I'm not sure. It's so easy to retreat when things get scary. It's so easy to not reach out to others. It's easy to just ball up inside yourself and try to ride it out. 

I don't have answers here. I just know that things feel so massive right now and I'm not sure what to do about. 

End of the Month

This month really sped by. I'm not sure what I even did during most of it. I know it snowed. I know we got the new stuff into the house. That's about it. I need to make some calls and talk to some people.

One of the calls I have scheduled is my next doctor's appointment. We'll be talking on the 11th about my progress with my mental health. I think things are going better, but I still have some concerns I want to bring up to her.

Overall, January wasn't bad this year. Hopefully, February will be better.

A Busy Day

Our furniture was delivered! It's very nice and taller than we expected. My roommate is tall and long-legged, so the higher furniture is good for him.

It was A LOT to make this happen. We had to save up the money for it and then wait about two months for it to actually get here. Then there was the process of moving the old stuff out and the new stuff in. Thankfully we had people to help with that. 

Anyway, I'm very pleased. The old couch was in ruins and no one was comfortable on it. The old chair was just about to the point of never sitting up well anymore. Now both are replaced and look very nice.

I am kind of sad that the old furniture is gone. Both pieces were bought by my grandmother and now that's more of her things out of the house. I still have the blanket chest, the clock, and the big mirror though. I'm happy I have those with me. 

Quietly Frozen

I found out today that I'm going to have to wait another six months on stuff with my dad. That's annoying and I have no idea why it's happening. It is though. This is taking forever. 

Our furniture is supposed to be here on Thursday. I'm guessing that will be delayed again as well. I get that there is snow and frozen conditions and it's affecting things, but it's still very frustrating. 

I just wish something positive would happen. I need something positive to happen. 

Annoying Winter

It wasn't supposed to snow. If snow had been forecast, we would have gotten more supplies. It wasn't though, so we didn't. 

And yet, it could start snowing at any moment. I hate winter for this kind of thing.

Moving Along

 The month is moving along. Things are moving faster than it feels like they should. The days seem to be speeding by and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because of what will happen on the 20th. If things play out the way they did last time, things will slow after he's in office again.

I'm still sick. My nose isn't clearing up and I'm still aching. I never seem to get enough sleep. It's supposed to get really cold again this weekend. I'm sure that won't do anything for my illness. It's possibly going to snow but I hope it doesn't because our furniture is (in theory) supposed to be here early next week.