Eclipse

Today my father asked me if I thought anything crazy would happen during the eclipse. I told him we were too boring for anything to really happen. Good, bad, or otherwise, we just have too mundane an existence for anything to happen during an event like that.

Having said that, the eclipse was beautiful. The world as a whole didn't change, but I'm better for having seen it. I'm glad I experienced it with my roommate. It freaked one of the cats out. The other one didn't care.

Progress Finally

I have my meds. I got them in a couple of days ago. I'm so happy I have them. I was preparing for how things would go if I didn't get them but thankfully that isn't something I have to worry about, at least not this month.

I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday. We'll be discussing the meds along with other topics. I can't think of a reason why she would change my dosage but it's always possible. If she does, at least the strength up from the one I'm doing right now seems to be easier to locate than the one I'm on. 

One way or the other, at least I have them.

The Med Woes Continue

I called the pharmacy today and they still didn't have my meds in. It's possible that they might have some in tomorrow but it's unlikely. I have an appointment to see my provider on Tuesday. Perhaps we can make some kind of progress here. I'm starting to really worry.

Outside of that, I did more walking than I normally do yesterday and I'm in a lot of pain today. I even snarked at someone on FB for not using a comma. I shouldn't have done that but whatever.

Net Failure

So the internet is out again. I'm doing this on my phone. I managed to handle all of my chatting, even though it was through 3 different apps. My brain was all over the place.

I went into a place tonight. I did okay with it. I think I  am getting better about this.

Med Woes

Due to increased demand and not enough supply, my meds won't be available until sometime mid-month. I still have some shots, but not many. And if this continues, I may get into a situation where I don't have meds at all.

I'm hoping I'll be okay. I'm hoping that I'll just continue to do things the way I've been doing them and ride this out until the situation calms down. But I'm not sure how easy that will be. 

To be honest, I'm scared. I've made some modest progress here and I don't want to lose all of it. I'm really scared.

Yesterday

Yesterday was a big day for me. I went to a movie and also out to eat. I've not been in TWO buildings on the same day in years. I've been so bad about just staying in the house and maybe going to A place once every six months. During Covid, I didn't go anywhere.  Past that, I just never got back into the habit of it.

I went to the Two Places with this cloud over me like something would go wrong. Nothing did* but I was worried that it would. The day went well and I'm very happy about it.

*Nothing went wrong while I was out. When we returned home, the internet went out for 24 hours, but I'm not going to see that as some kind of punishment for going out and having a good time, even if my inner voices are trying to tell me that's the case.

Ups and Downs and Downs

We're doing a Thing on Tuesday and despite the physical demands of it, I'm looking forward to it. I'm still nervous, but not in a dire level of panic.

Speaking of panic though, I had a low level panic attack on Thursday and didn't do some stuff I should have done. Things are better now, but because I put off what I should have done then, I'll be doing it on Monday instead. Hopefully I won't panic about it then.

While we're on the subject of panicking, I had to do an interview on Friday and ever since I've been questioning every answer I gave. Even though I mostly just answered yes or no, I'm still worried I somehow messed it up.

I wish I wasn't scared all the time. It's very exhausting.