Bad Weather Again

There is snow on the ground and some patches of ice. It's very, very cold. It's supposed to be even colder in the morning and I'm not looking forward to it.

We're trying our best to just stay warm and keep the cats warm. I worry for the strays but they're too feral for us to help much. At least they have the barn and the neighborhood abandoned house to stay in.

Appointment

I talked with my doctor yesterday. She thinks my thyroid is low and wanted it checked again. I had another blood draw and now we'll wait and see. 

I mean, the last thing I want is to deal with MORE medication, but at the same time, I am dealing with some severe fatigue lately. I think if it is my thyroid, that at least is something that can be managed. 

Outside of that, the discussion was fine. We're both pleased with what my mental health is looking like right now so that's not a problem. It's a step in the right direction.

Struggle

I have a call with my doctor on Tuesday. We're to discuss my meds and what needs to be changed or kept the same. I think my mental health has improved some, but other aspects are still pretty awful. I'll see what we can do about that. 

It's supposed to get cold again this week. We might get snow or ice or nothing. Hopefully nothing. I really don't want to deal with slickery. I'm too apt to fall. 

Quiet

In dark times, it's so easy to become quiet. People get scared. People get overwhelmed. People get tired of having to fight.  I get that. I understand that. Sometimes, I live that.

So what to do about it? I'm not sure. It's so easy to retreat when things get scary. It's so easy to not reach out to others. It's easy to just ball up inside yourself and try to ride it out. 

I don't have answers here. I just know that things feel so massive right now and I'm not sure what to do about.