We've had rain on and off all day. It's supposed to be this way for the rest of the week. This sucks because the lawn needs mowing. It's probably going to be stupid high before that happens.
I know this isn't a nice thing to say, but I really dislike the yard. It's nice to look at, but it requires more effort and fuss than we can really put out or afford. I hate having to worry about the grass and the weeds and the bushes. . . and I'm not even the one putting out the physical effort to deal with them. I wish the whole yard was just covered in artful pavers with a nice ramp to the doors so it was easier for me to walk and covered areas for the cars. No grass. No bushes. None of that unless it can just be put in a contained bed and left to its own devices.
If I ever get to design my own space, that is what it will be.
Tuesday, April 30, 2019
Monday, April 29, 2019
Yay
Game of Thrones Season 8:3 was awesome. It was shot really well. It wasn't perfect, but it had a lot of good moments to it. There were some epic deaths and not as many as expected. I know a lot of people think it was too fast and that maybe Arya shouldn't have been the one to kill the Night King, but I'm good with it.
We have 3 episodes left. I still think Bran will turn evil. We'll see.
We have 3 episodes left. I still think Bran will turn evil. We'll see.
Saturday, April 27, 2019
Pain and Depression
I had more planned for that GoT thing. I have notes. I'll try to get back to it when I can. For now, I'm just doing my best to not be completely depressed. The chemicals are bad today. They were bad yesterday. I feel vulnerable and embarrassed by like....everything I've ever done that my brain keeps reminding me of. Stupid chemicals.
Thursday, April 25, 2019
Face of the Father
As I said in the last post, the problem with the Seven concerned their rigid interpretation. This lead to their representations being either very stern, corrupted, or uninteresting. This is probably most true for the aspects of the Father, Mother, Maiden, and Warrior. In each case, we see a narrow path presented. Staying on the path means a whole set of rules. Straying from it results in some very bad things.
One of the first examples we see of how this plays out is in the case of Jon Snow once he joins the Night's Watch. When assignments are made, the black brothers are divided into one of three paths. They can be Rangers (which here represent Warrior), Builders (Smith), or Stewards (caretakers who represent the Father). Now mind you, the Watch is eons older than the Faith of the Seven, so these paths are not dictated by the gods of the Seven, but as the minds of the people tend to shape the narratives of how gods/roles/icons are viewed, over time, the two began to merge. Jon views the ONLY path acceptable as that of a Ranger. The other two, to him, seem boring to the point of being insulting. He's deeply angered and disappointed when he's put in the Steward ranks and doesn't seem to understand that the Lord Commander is grooming him to take his place when he's older. Even after Sam points this out, Jon still isn't happy about it and finds a way to function as a Ranger as quickly as he can. In this way, Jon is displaying a common issue with the role of Father in the Seven Kingdoms. He doesn't want to be in charge. He doesn't want to tend to others. Even after circumstances prove that he is, in some ways, very good at this, he is still, fundamentally, against the idea. At the beginning of the story (in both books and show), we see this is pretty common with a lot of men. Robert hates being king and is awful as a father. Jorah runs from his responsibilities as a lord. Jaime denies his own children and plays as the single, beautiful knight. Only Eddard Stark, our main and martyred character of the first book/season, is a reasonable father figure. The problem is, he is flawed by his sense of honor and values. While he does some things to keep his family safe, his own code prevents him from doing all that is needed to keep things going. In the end, he is killed, taking our best example (up to that point) of a father and therefore the Father, out of the picture.
Ned's replacement comes along in the second book/season, in the form of Davos Seaworth. Davos is an upjumped former smuggler who is now a knight serving under would-be king Stannis Baratheon. Davos earned his rank and standing by using his smuggling ship to bring food to Stannis during Robert's War when he'd been neglected by everyone else, meaning, the first heroic act we see from this man is technically a crime. Davos isn't afraid to get his hands dirty if it means doing the right thing. In fact, this is his strength.
When we meet Davos, we see his war from the outside, from the perspective of Maester Cressen who has taken care of Stannis since he was a child. Cressen introduces us to the major Dragonstone players....Stannis, Melisandre, and Davos. Then he is killed when he tries to assassinate the Red Priestess. He speaks with Davos before he dies, symbolically handing off guardianship of Stannis to him.
Even though Davos is involved in many events throughout the story, his war is a private one. He is battling Melisandre (who despite being a priestess of the Red God, represents the Corrupted Mother) for narrative control of the area around them. At first, it seems like the Corrupted Mother is winning. She has control over all of Davos's sons. She has Stannis's ear. She even uses Davos's water skills to help her get to the places she needs to birth her shadow monsters. But he doesn't let her keep this control. He convinces Stannis to not let her go to King's Landing and never allows himself to fully be under her thrall. Even though they both battle for Stannis's faith, most of the time, Davos is coming off the better for it.
The show has moved past the books. In the show, Melisandre has a major win against him when she convinces Stannis to sacrifice Shireen. He sends Davos away, but in the end knows what he did was wrong. Mel is able to use that power to bring back Jon Snow, actually on the advice of Davos. When he realizes how she was able to do this, Jon exiles her and Davos knows he'll kill her if he sees her again. He isn't able to keep her from doing horrible things, but at least he drives the Corrupted Mother away.
Davos brings many new aspects to the archetype of the Father. He is common born, humble, and yet capable of doing noble and heroic things. He is a savior, who risked his own life again and again (and has even had two symbolic deaths in the book) in order to fight for what he believes in.
Most importantly, I think the aspect of the Father of the Seven that will shine the most as this new age begins is something we see in Davos again and again. Even after he loses his own children, he is still a father to the children of other people. He takes care of Shireen. He is sent to rescue Rickon in the books. He also rescues Edric Storm (and Gendry in the show) from being sacrificed by Mel. This inspires Jon to do the same later with Dalla's baby. In fact, once we see Davos-as-new-Father in play, we start to see this aspect of him over and over again in other characters. Jon saves Aemon. Sam saves Gilly's child from Craster. The Hound (of all people) takes care of Arya. All of this reflects men using trickery, but also kindness to help children. They break the rules, but in doing so, children are saved.
And this kind of Father is needed. In a land ravaged by war, where orphans and starvation are common, the idea of men willing to do what they can for the kids around them is a beautiful thing, a holy thing, and a needed thing if the Faith of the Seven is to survive.
One of the first examples we see of how this plays out is in the case of Jon Snow once he joins the Night's Watch. When assignments are made, the black brothers are divided into one of three paths. They can be Rangers (which here represent Warrior), Builders (Smith), or Stewards (caretakers who represent the Father). Now mind you, the Watch is eons older than the Faith of the Seven, so these paths are not dictated by the gods of the Seven, but as the minds of the people tend to shape the narratives of how gods/roles/icons are viewed, over time, the two began to merge. Jon views the ONLY path acceptable as that of a Ranger. The other two, to him, seem boring to the point of being insulting. He's deeply angered and disappointed when he's put in the Steward ranks and doesn't seem to understand that the Lord Commander is grooming him to take his place when he's older. Even after Sam points this out, Jon still isn't happy about it and finds a way to function as a Ranger as quickly as he can. In this way, Jon is displaying a common issue with the role of Father in the Seven Kingdoms. He doesn't want to be in charge. He doesn't want to tend to others. Even after circumstances prove that he is, in some ways, very good at this, he is still, fundamentally, against the idea. At the beginning of the story (in both books and show), we see this is pretty common with a lot of men. Robert hates being king and is awful as a father. Jorah runs from his responsibilities as a lord. Jaime denies his own children and plays as the single, beautiful knight. Only Eddard Stark, our main and martyred character of the first book/season, is a reasonable father figure. The problem is, he is flawed by his sense of honor and values. While he does some things to keep his family safe, his own code prevents him from doing all that is needed to keep things going. In the end, he is killed, taking our best example (up to that point) of a father and therefore the Father, out of the picture.
Ned's replacement comes along in the second book/season, in the form of Davos Seaworth. Davos is an upjumped former smuggler who is now a knight serving under would-be king Stannis Baratheon. Davos earned his rank and standing by using his smuggling ship to bring food to Stannis during Robert's War when he'd been neglected by everyone else, meaning, the first heroic act we see from this man is technically a crime. Davos isn't afraid to get his hands dirty if it means doing the right thing. In fact, this is his strength.
When we meet Davos, we see his war from the outside, from the perspective of Maester Cressen who has taken care of Stannis since he was a child. Cressen introduces us to the major Dragonstone players....Stannis, Melisandre, and Davos. Then he is killed when he tries to assassinate the Red Priestess. He speaks with Davos before he dies, symbolically handing off guardianship of Stannis to him.
Even though Davos is involved in many events throughout the story, his war is a private one. He is battling Melisandre (who despite being a priestess of the Red God, represents the Corrupted Mother) for narrative control of the area around them. At first, it seems like the Corrupted Mother is winning. She has control over all of Davos's sons. She has Stannis's ear. She even uses Davos's water skills to help her get to the places she needs to birth her shadow monsters. But he doesn't let her keep this control. He convinces Stannis to not let her go to King's Landing and never allows himself to fully be under her thrall. Even though they both battle for Stannis's faith, most of the time, Davos is coming off the better for it.
The show has moved past the books. In the show, Melisandre has a major win against him when she convinces Stannis to sacrifice Shireen. He sends Davos away, but in the end knows what he did was wrong. Mel is able to use that power to bring back Jon Snow, actually on the advice of Davos. When he realizes how she was able to do this, Jon exiles her and Davos knows he'll kill her if he sees her again. He isn't able to keep her from doing horrible things, but at least he drives the Corrupted Mother away.
Davos brings many new aspects to the archetype of the Father. He is common born, humble, and yet capable of doing noble and heroic things. He is a savior, who risked his own life again and again (and has even had two symbolic deaths in the book) in order to fight for what he believes in.
Most importantly, I think the aspect of the Father of the Seven that will shine the most as this new age begins is something we see in Davos again and again. Even after he loses his own children, he is still a father to the children of other people. He takes care of Shireen. He is sent to rescue Rickon in the books. He also rescues Edric Storm (and Gendry in the show) from being sacrificed by Mel. This inspires Jon to do the same later with Dalla's baby. In fact, once we see Davos-as-new-Father in play, we start to see this aspect of him over and over again in other characters. Jon saves Aemon. Sam saves Gilly's child from Craster. The Hound (of all people) takes care of Arya. All of this reflects men using trickery, but also kindness to help children. They break the rules, but in doing so, children are saved.
And this kind of Father is needed. In a land ravaged by war, where orphans and starvation are common, the idea of men willing to do what they can for the kids around them is a beautiful thing, a holy thing, and a needed thing if the Faith of the Seven is to survive.
Wednesday, April 24, 2019
Fate of the Seven as seen in Secondary Characters
Watching American Gods and Game of Thrones at the same time is interesting on my brain. It's allowed me to evaluate some of the things happening within Westeros that I never considered before. Specifically, how the New Gods are playing their part in determining how things will play out.
The Faith of the Seven is the major religion in the southern kingdoms, but for most of my time with GRRM's work, I've not paid that much attention to them. Compared to the old gods of the North, the fire god of the East, or even the drowned god of the Iron Born, the Seven just came off as something people made up. It felt fake. Then I realized that perhaps these gods were being, but a necessity, more subtle than the others. After all, as the dominant religion in an area, how things play out for them will have the greatest impact on the day to day lives of their people. Unlike the other gods (who seem to be concerned with the Epic Matter at Hand), the Seven are more connected to their people. Whatever they do is going to affect the common person, though that makes it no less important.
What is happening in the books (and the show) is more than just good versus evil, living versus the dead. That is happening too, of course, but on a fundamental level, this is a reality shift. That shift is happening due to certain people taking on archetypal roles and playing out narratives used to determine the course of events. On the grand scale, people like Jon, Dany, Bran, and the Night King are battling to control the fate of the world. But what about the fate of the everyday person in the Seven Kingdoms?
The gods of the Seven are busy too, fighting a series of subtle battles to see how they will be viewed when this crisis comes to an end. You'll note when we first see the various roles set down by the Seven, they are usually rigid, corrupted, or exploited. Fathers (also male leaders) are either neglectful (Robert), domineering (Tywin), or evil (Walder, Craster). Mothers are mostly seen as overly protective to a point of insanity (Cersei, Lysa, and later after she comes back, Kat). Warriors are either broken or brutal. Maidens are held to strict standards based on little more than virginity. Crones mostly get viewed as crazy old women. Smiths are exploited workers. Basically, everyone is miserable under the current paradigm and it needs to change.
So as this story unfolds we begin to see many of our secondary characters taking on aspects and faces of the Seven. Interestingly, we don't just see SEVEN characters who do this, because in the struggle to readdress how the archetype will be viewed, many faces are put forth.
Hmm. This is getting long. I think it's going to be a several part blog post. I'll start with the Father tomorrow and discuss how Davos is really one of the most important parts of this story.
The Faith of the Seven is the major religion in the southern kingdoms, but for most of my time with GRRM's work, I've not paid that much attention to them. Compared to the old gods of the North, the fire god of the East, or even the drowned god of the Iron Born, the Seven just came off as something people made up. It felt fake. Then I realized that perhaps these gods were being, but a necessity, more subtle than the others. After all, as the dominant religion in an area, how things play out for them will have the greatest impact on the day to day lives of their people. Unlike the other gods (who seem to be concerned with the Epic Matter at Hand), the Seven are more connected to their people. Whatever they do is going to affect the common person, though that makes it no less important.
What is happening in the books (and the show) is more than just good versus evil, living versus the dead. That is happening too, of course, but on a fundamental level, this is a reality shift. That shift is happening due to certain people taking on archetypal roles and playing out narratives used to determine the course of events. On the grand scale, people like Jon, Dany, Bran, and the Night King are battling to control the fate of the world. But what about the fate of the everyday person in the Seven Kingdoms?
The gods of the Seven are busy too, fighting a series of subtle battles to see how they will be viewed when this crisis comes to an end. You'll note when we first see the various roles set down by the Seven, they are usually rigid, corrupted, or exploited. Fathers (also male leaders) are either neglectful (Robert), domineering (Tywin), or evil (Walder, Craster). Mothers are mostly seen as overly protective to a point of insanity (Cersei, Lysa, and later after she comes back, Kat). Warriors are either broken or brutal. Maidens are held to strict standards based on little more than virginity. Crones mostly get viewed as crazy old women. Smiths are exploited workers. Basically, everyone is miserable under the current paradigm and it needs to change.
So as this story unfolds we begin to see many of our secondary characters taking on aspects and faces of the Seven. Interestingly, we don't just see SEVEN characters who do this, because in the struggle to readdress how the archetype will be viewed, many faces are put forth.
Hmm. This is getting long. I think it's going to be a several part blog post. I'll start with the Father tomorrow and discuss how Davos is really one of the most important parts of this story.
Monday, April 22, 2019
Absent
Wow, I haven't blogged in days. It wasn't intentional. I was busy with other stuff/people. Nothing bad. It just took up a lot of my brainspace.
Anyway, things are okay. My foot still hurts, but I'm getting around better so long as I don't have to walk too far. I got drunk on Saturday night and my foot was great then, but I don't think 'stay drunk all the time' is really a great option for my life. Not with all my other issues.
GoT 8:2 was better than the first episode. Sinead O'Connor has a song called "Drink Before the War" and it felt a lot like that. I'm a sucker for pre-battle episodes. I need to go listen to that album again.
Anyway, things are okay. My foot still hurts, but I'm getting around better so long as I don't have to walk too far. I got drunk on Saturday night and my foot was great then, but I don't think 'stay drunk all the time' is really a great option for my life. Not with all my other issues.
GoT 8:2 was better than the first episode. Sinead O'Connor has a song called "Drink Before the War" and it felt a lot like that. I'm a sucker for pre-battle episodes. I need to go listen to that album again.
Friday, April 19, 2019
Spring Day
I didn't post last night because I was dog tired. I still am today, really. I had to be up at 5 yesterday morning and I drove in a massive rainstorm. It sucked. Today I had to be out for hours and everyone was slow and awful. This also sucked.
Despite all of that and being in some considerable pain (still), I'm in a pretty good mood. The day was glorious with good sunshine and lots of pretty flowers. I love Spring for that.
Despite all of that and being in some considerable pain (still), I'm in a pretty good mood. The day was glorious with good sunshine and lots of pretty flowers. I love Spring for that.
Wednesday, April 17, 2019
Eventualities
I've been watching the TryGuys do a series over old age. They had old age makeup done. They wore outfits to simulate the basic pain that most old people feel. They did their bests to explore the discomfort and aspects of this facet of our lives.
One of the things that struck me is how people know there are products and appliances that would make old age easier, but tend not to make them because they don't think people will buy 'old people' products. While this is probably true, it's sad and counterproductive. Old age is part of life, just like any other phase. Anything that makes it easier should be embraced.
As I've written about before, I believe people should design their homes around the idea that one day they could be disabled. It is something that happens to many people. Might as well prepare for it.
One of the things that struck me is how people know there are products and appliances that would make old age easier, but tend not to make them because they don't think people will buy 'old people' products. While this is probably true, it's sad and counterproductive. Old age is part of life, just like any other phase. Anything that makes it easier should be embraced.
As I've written about before, I believe people should design their homes around the idea that one day they could be disabled. It is something that happens to many people. Might as well prepare for it.
Tuesday, April 16, 2019
Slipped
The last couple of days have been nice and sunny. I've had a fan on, but it kept me as cool as I needed to be. I also got enough rest and that is something I really needed.
Thursday will be my first outing out all by myself since I injured my foot. It will also be two weeks since that injury happened. I'll admit I'm scared. That day was pretty awful for me. I don't want a repeat of it. I'll do what I can.
You know, I wish I could be back to the year after my surgery. I declared that the Year of Being Brave and made a lot of progress on the brave front. Somehow I lost all that. It just slipped through my fingers and I wish I could get that courage back. I don't want to go through a horrifying surgery to get there, but, maybe just being less fearful and feeling so vulnerable would be nice for a change.
We'll see.
Thursday will be my first outing out all by myself since I injured my foot. It will also be two weeks since that injury happened. I'll admit I'm scared. That day was pretty awful for me. I don't want a repeat of it. I'll do what I can.
You know, I wish I could be back to the year after my surgery. I declared that the Year of Being Brave and made a lot of progress on the brave front. Somehow I lost all that. It just slipped through my fingers and I wish I could get that courage back. I don't want to go through a horrifying surgery to get there, but, maybe just being less fearful and feeling so vulnerable would be nice for a change.
We'll see.
Monday, April 15, 2019
The Return
Game of Thrones returned for its final season last night. The first episode was a little underwhelming, but if memory serves, the first episodes of the seasons usually are. There were things I wish would have been stronger (like Yara's rescue) but mostly it was just setting pieces for the major events to come. I think the highlight for me was Tyrion and Sansa meeting up again. I didn't think it would be as awesome as it was, but it was. She's really changed a lot.
Anyway, only 5 episodes after this and the show will be over forever. They plan on doing spin-offs, but it won't be the same. I'll miss it.
Anyway, only 5 episodes after this and the show will be over forever. They plan on doing spin-offs, but it won't be the same. I'll miss it.
Saturday, April 13, 2019
Rainy Saturday
It rained most of the day. I did some knitting and tried to keep my mind in a happy place. I also folded towels and did my best to make my bed function better. Beds become a big deal when you're an adult. I didn't expect that.
Because it was colder than usual, the cats were friendly and cuddly. I think they only like humans for comfort and food. That's fine. I love them anyway.
Because it was colder than usual, the cats were friendly and cuddly. I think they only like humans for comfort and food. That's fine. I love them anyway.
Thursday, April 11, 2019
One Week
It's been a week since I messed up my foot. Seven days ago I was in so much pain when I stood that I wondered if I was going to blackout. It was very difficult and more than a little terrifying. The fact that I can't take walking for granted is disturbing. It was certainly a low point in my life.
Today I'm still hurting, but I'm getting around better than I did. I'm having to miss stuff that I wish I could be doing, but I suppose that's just how it has to be until I'm healed.
Like I said after the car broke down and after the crisis before that and the one before that, I really, really, really need this to be the last one for a while. I need quiet. I need peace. I need things to just go along boringly for a while. Please.
Today I'm still hurting, but I'm getting around better than I did. I'm having to miss stuff that I wish I could be doing, but I suppose that's just how it has to be until I'm healed.
Like I said after the car broke down and after the crisis before that and the one before that, I really, really, really need this to be the last one for a while. I need quiet. I need peace. I need things to just go along boringly for a while. Please.
Wednesday, April 10, 2019
Trying
I tried so hard to be in a good mood tonight. I talked about things that excited me. I tried not to hate on things. I'm not sure how well it worked.
I will, however, continue my best not to fall into the pit of darkness.
I will, however, continue my best not to fall into the pit of darkness.
Tuesday, April 9, 2019
Bleeding the Poor
I think there are a lot of people who don't quite get how difficult it can be to be poor. Beyond that, I don't think people grasp the number of rich people who prey on the poor due to their situation. This video explains one of the many ways.
Housing for poor people is always a concern. From areas overpricing houses to where poor people can't rent (and certainly not buy) to renters having almost no rights, things in the housing market are very bad. The video deals with the mobile home aspect of it, which is getting more and more predatory.
It reminds me of why this country will never find a way to get rid of poverty.....there are just too many ways for the rich to exploit us.
It reminds me of why this country will never find a way to get rid of poverty.....there are just too many ways for the rich to exploit us.
Monday, April 8, 2019
Anxious
I was anxious all evening and I don't know why.
Then I realized I DO know why.
Then I realized I DO know why.
- I'm hellishly poor.
- I have no emergency fund.
- Anything and everything in this house could mess up.
- The people closest to me in this world aren't well.
- I had to renew my benefits.
- My adult life seems to be marked by death, illness, and failure.
- I can't even trust walking without getting injured.
- It's about to get hot.
Yeah, just that stuff.
Sunday, April 7, 2019
A Bit Up
I've had some stressful days in the last nine months. I've had scary days. I've had days where I was angry. I've had days where I grieved. I honestly think I didn't feel as just low and defeated as I did driving home the other day.
I injured my foot while I was at a friend's house and I had to basically navigate my way through my time there as best I could. I needed help leaving the house. I couldn't find a comfortable position for my foot while driving (though, at least, it was my non-driving foot). I didn't know how hard it was going to be to get into my house.
But all of that was just background noise to just how defeated I felt. It just seemed there had been one more thing piled on top of all the other things and I just didn't know how I could emotionally deal with it. I just felt like I've been pushing so much through stress just hoping for an ending to it.
I realize this sounds bratty. Or it probably sounds bratty. The point is, I'm better now. I feel less defeated. I managed to get through that day and I've managed to function despite the pain since then. So yeah, I'm emotionally better, even if my foot's still pissed off.
I injured my foot while I was at a friend's house and I had to basically navigate my way through my time there as best I could. I needed help leaving the house. I couldn't find a comfortable position for my foot while driving (though, at least, it was my non-driving foot). I didn't know how hard it was going to be to get into my house.
But all of that was just background noise to just how defeated I felt. It just seemed there had been one more thing piled on top of all the other things and I just didn't know how I could emotionally deal with it. I just felt like I've been pushing so much through stress just hoping for an ending to it.
I realize this sounds bratty. Or it probably sounds bratty. The point is, I'm better now. I feel less defeated. I managed to get through that day and I've managed to function despite the pain since then. So yeah, I'm emotionally better, even if my foot's still pissed off.
Saturday, April 6, 2019
The Pain Continues
The foot is still bad, but it's less stiff and swollen. The pain is intense, but less swollen is always better.
This was so scary. The worst part about this kind of sprain is that it's unpredictable and it could happen again. And, I mean, you HAVE TO walk. Eventually you have to go to the bathroom or whatever. Ugh.
This was so scary. The worst part about this kind of sprain is that it's unpredictable and it could happen again. And, I mean, you HAVE TO walk. Eventually you have to go to the bathroom or whatever. Ugh.
Friday, April 5, 2019
Pain
I screwed up my left foot. It hurts. A LOT. It hurts so much that when I stand on it I have a moment of wanting to just black out or die.
That's my life right now.
That's my life right now.
Wednesday, April 3, 2019
In the Wind
The paperwork is out of my hands now. Everything has been turned in and I have done as much as I could to make this work for me. Even though any aspect of control I had in the matter is gone, all responsibility I had is over. That is enough to calm me. Mostly.
The morning itself was annoying. We had a series of tasks and stops that needed completing. Neither of us feel that great so we try to plan trips out in ways that allow us to get as much done as possible. It's easier than going out more times. Some weeks it feels like we're constantly running.
Anyway, all of our plans to make today easier did not work. Several technical issues caused us to have to alter our route and change the order of things. It ended up eating an extra hour of the day.
At least it's finished.
The morning itself was annoying. We had a series of tasks and stops that needed completing. Neither of us feel that great so we try to plan trips out in ways that allow us to get as much done as possible. It's easier than going out more times. Some weeks it feels like we're constantly running.
Anyway, all of our plans to make today easier did not work. Several technical issues caused us to have to alter our route and change the order of things. It ended up eating an extra hour of the day.
At least it's finished.
Tuesday, April 2, 2019
Grays
I'm in the grays right now. I try to be creative and I can't manage to do it. Maybe once the yearly paperwork is finished and I'm in the clear for that, I'll be better. For now, it just isn't happening. I don't think I can force myself to try and write when I just can't connect to the creative part of my mind.
On the other side of things, I did movement today. At least that happened. So . . . yay for that.
On the other side of things, I did movement today. At least that happened. So . . . yay for that.
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