Halloween 2023

The holiday was lowkey but fun. We went out and got food from a place we rarely visit, which was nice and novel. Then we watched a horror series we've been working through all month. It wasn't a lot, but it was something and I'm happy about that.

November starts tomorrow. As my roommate has remarked, this has really been a rough year in a lot of ways and I'm not expecting better out of the next two months. I'm hoping nothing goes wrong and that things are quiet and sedate. That's about the best I can wish for.

Drop

It got really cold. I'm not that mad about it, not the way I would be if it got really hot right now. In fact, it was kind of nice because we were able to get out the rest of the blankets we usually keep around for the winter. This includes several blankets I made myself. It's always nice to see my work keeping me and others warm.

The cat is especially happy because now she has all kinds of places to get cuddles and snuggles. She really loves that a lot.

Misinformation

 Today I found out someone thought something about me that may affect the way they view me. They thought I was younger than I am. Almost 15 years younger. I think the things that one excuses for someone in their 30s just really don't fly when that person is nearing 50. I'm not sure how this will affect things going forward. I'm a little nervous about it.

The thing is, I didn't misrepresent my age. I wrote it down on paperwork when I first met them. This kind of baffles me.

Touching Lives

Someone in one of my fandoms is leaving the fandom for a while. She isn't angry or upset. She still loves the fandom. Now, however, she's started to publish her own writing and it's taking more of her time.  Because of this, she just really can't run the fandom pages that she used to.

People were thanking her for the work she did. I was no different. In fact, she encouraged me to enter an event last year that this year led me to find someone who has become a very good friend. I explained to her how her encouragement helped me to enrich my life in a new way. 

 I know it can sometimes feel risky to encourage people to enter things or to introduce them to new music/shows/fandoms, but just remember that when you do, you could be helping that person find things that make them very happy. In a world full of people who are usually trying to just drag us down, it's so nice to sometimes find those who are willing to actually help us make our lives better. 

If you have to be one or the other, be the person trying to enrich those around you.

No Net

Our internet was off for hours on Friday. I'm not sure of the details and I don't really care. I mostly just care that I missed several hours of doing what I love doing the best. 

This was the day after we had to deal with the light switch issue. There are just so many little things weighing down on us right now. They need to stop. 

How Many Does it Take

Last night, around 1 AM, our kitchen light switch broke. It didn't break in the off position. It broke while it was on and we couldn't turn it off. 

We both watched a video about how to change out a light switch and my roommate decided he could do it. This morning he got the parts and changed it out. It's very impressive that he could do this.

Sticker Shock

We're trying to find a new couch and actually went to a place to look today. They said they were having a sale and we figured we could swing their prices if things were on sale.

Oh. WOW. We were so wrong. SO wrong. Everything in that store was priced so high out of our range. There was no way we could afford any of it. And honestly, that's more than I'm willing to spend on something that people will spill things on and probably bleed on and stuff like that. Couches are lived on pieces of furniture. You can't be delicate with them. 

So I guess the hunt continues. 

Decent

Despite being in pain, I had a pretty good day today. It was a nice Fall day when things were kind of dark and spooky-looking. Even though the darkness can get to me during this time of year, I was able to really enjoy the beauty of it today.

We're having a very busy week and I hope things go well for us. My roommate has to get some things settled as he changes from one doctor to the other and there might be some car repairs going on as well. At some point we still need to get a new couch but that keeps getting put off because all this other stuff is happening. By the time things slow down, it will probably be too cold to bother looking. 

I'm not sure there is anything we can do about that though.

Nervous

My nerves are shot today. They've been shot for a while. I think I've just had too many shocks and surprises lately. I need things to calm down so I can just relax for a while. This is a mess. 

I need a break. I need some happiness and joy. I need things to just be quiet for a while.

Uncomfortable

I have some issues going on right now that are making my whole body pretty uncomfortable. It doesn't help that things have been stressful and that's making me twitch to no end. 

I really need things to heal up and calm down. This is just all way too much.

Scared

The last couple of times we've gotten the mail, I've received stressful, potentially life-damaging forms to fill out. The last time I went to the mail, said form reached me the day after it was due. 

Given that, I'm a bit trepiduous about picking up the mail tomorrow. What fresh hell of mail will be waiting for me? I just don't have the spoons for this anymore.

Tired

There has been a lot of stress lately. It's mostly been in the household, not directed at me personally. Yesterday, I got some stress directed at me and now I'm having to try and deal with it. 

I did everything I could to make the situation work in my favor. I did everything I could. Hopefully it works out.

Running Up Thine Hill

 Someone did a Middle English cover of Kate Bush's Running Up that Hill and it's kind of glorious. I love medieval covers of modern songs. It's interesting to see how much music has changed and all the ways in which it hasn't. 

That was the good news of the day. The rest of the day was a mix of medical professionals not being all that professional and me disappointing others. So yeah, not a great day.

SAD

I'm starting to feel the twitches of Seasonal Affective Disorder. Today was bright in parts, but even still I felt the urge to cry most of the day. I feel the nervousness kicking in and despite the fact that I have medication to deal with this, it's still messing with me. I'm not sure what to do about it other than sitting under my light. 

My mother used to have a bad case of it every year. They didn't know what it was back then, of course. She would be so much worse during the winter months and then kind of blossom back out as spring hit. During the summer she would be her happiest, only to start closing up again as fall returned. 

We have ways of trying to combat this, but there is only so much we can do. Still, we'll try our best.