Year in Reflection

I probably won't read this again until almost 2027, so to me in the future, hi. I hope things are going well. 

So what was this year?

It was the first full year without my father. I think that is a lot of what happened to me, shaped a good deal of what  happened to me this year. That meant I had to deal with some very annoying family issues. I have basically had to write some of my family members off. I hate that, but I really had no choice.

It was a year of bleeding. I had two surgeries this year. With one of them, I bled for days afterward. I bled from times I injured myself. I bled from various cat cuts.

It was a year of changes. I got braver this year. I changed cars. I changed insurance companies. I changed my perspective on letting things go. I changed a lot about my diet and about how I would document my life.

It was a year of expenses. So, so many expenses. 

It was a year of learning. I am now better educated about quite a few subjects. I'm really glad I did that because knowledge, always, is power. 

It was a year of good music. I had my favorites and I listened to them happily. Music really brought me a lot of joy, comfort, assistance, and solace this year. 

I am ending the year with hope, but also some questions. There are people I've not heard from in a long time, and they stayed quiet even after I reached out to them. I am not sure if I will get my motivation back. It's very seriously lacking of late. I know things are easier in the spring for me, but I worry that the motivation and inspiration won't return. I suppose, in time, I'll know.

What do I not want for this next year? No unpleasantness. No unexpected hurts. No more deaths. 

What do I want for this next year? I want to make progress. I want to be proud of myself. I want to feel joy. 

Goodbye, 2025. We learned a lot of things. Hello, 2026. Let's try to make things better.