Failure in Perspective

Ever since I was young, I've felt like a failure because I couldn't get to a healthy weight. This sense of failure was always lurking in the back of my mind. Sometimes it would move to the forefront of my mind and consume me. 

I'm in this place now where I am doing my best to shed that sense of being a failure. Not just because I'm actually losing weight but because my perspective on it is changing. 

This is a journey. It's the journey of a lifetime I suppose. I've had a lot of pitfalls and a lot of stumbling blocks, but no matter what I can always move forward. So that's what I'm doing. When I have days where I don't feel like working out or days when my calories go above my limit, I don't beat myself up over it. I just start again the next day.

The thing is, I don't want to just feel like a failure anymore. But unless I change that on my own, even losing the weight wouldn't actually alter how I viewed myself.