The Unhelpful Rain

Okay look, I get that the rain we had tonight was good for outside. Nature needed it. However, it sucked for us. It lowered the temp just enough to where we couldn't run the AC without it causing issues. At the same time, it left the air humid and steamy. I went from being comfortable and happy to just sweaty and kind of ill in the space of an hour. I still don't feel that great.

So that basically ruined my evening. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

The Struggle

I'm trying so hard not to let the sadness get to me. It's trying. I'm doing my best to avoid it. It isn't easy. Hot weather makes it more difficult.

We had tasks this week. We've mostly completed the tasks. I don't think we have to do anything tomorrow. I plan on spending the day trying to not let depression get me. 

Human Contact

I got to see my baby today!! It's been well over a year since I was able to hug my best friend's daughter. It's the longest I've gone without hugging her since she was born. 

It was wonderful, but it was also difficult. I'm still not good at being around people again. My body was really nervous about the visit and responding in all of its usual ways. At least I didn't get hives. 

In little kid years, 15 or so months is a long time. She's grown so much. Her hair texture has changed. She's taller. Most of her little-childness has melted away. I feel so robbed. I'm sure a lot of people who haven't been around their beloved kiddos in the last year feel the same. 

I'm really grateful I got to see her. I'm so thankful we both made it through this. 

After the Holiday

Still hard to breathe today. The weather was okay though. It's nice that we'll have a few days in July with no AC. Any little bit helps. 

They're still shooting fireworks tonight and the cats aren't happy. Hopefully, this will be the last night. Maybe they'll save the rest for New Year's Eve.

Spangled

Today was the 4th of July. I'm watching people's fireworks go off around me. I'll enjoy it tonight (the night it's proper to shoot them!) instead of grousing like I usually do. 

To celebrate freedom, I swept the kitchen and folded some towels. The towels look great. The kitchen looks no different. The old flooring really needs to be redone. Okay, let's be honest here. The whole house needs to be redone. 

Anyway, this week I get to see my friend and her precious goblin. It's been over a year since I saw the goblin and I miss her dearly. I'm rather excited about this.

The Strong Mollies

Tinkerbell was a homeless cat for many years of her life. Most of the time, since she came to live with us, she is okay. But sometimes, the outside world comes inside and it scares her.

This is most true during the 4th of July. My neighbors set off so many fireworks that it just fries her nerves. Right now she's hiding under my bed. She went in there around the time it started to get dark. I think she knew the Loud Noises would start happening soon. She'll probably do this until enough days have passed that she feels safe enough to hang out in the open again. Basically, this time of year wrecks between a week and two weeks of her life, depending on when they decide to start shooking the firecrackers. And that sucks because she doesn't have much time left.

We're doing for her what we can. We'll try to comfort her as much as possible. But the main thing right now is just to wait this out.

Pops

Basically, my whole evening was just neighborhood kids blowing up fireworks. The cats are hiding. I'm annoyed. It's difficult to breathe. I hope they're happy. 

July is here. Yay. One hellmonth of hellsummer down. Only like three to possibly four more to go. This depends on how much of a bitch October decides to be. I've already given up on September. It's basically just Late and Wicked Summer now. Then I'll get my two days of Autumn before it decides to just rain and be dreary and finally turn into some kind of frightening hellscape of snow that people will want me to go out in. 

Yay.