Gas

Gas prices are high right now and will get higher since we decided not to purchase Russian oil. The conservatives are blaming Biden for all of this because it's politically advantageous to them and trying to educate people on the multifaceted reasons for gas prices is too difficult. 

We're not having to drive anywhere too far right now, so hopefully, we'll be okay. However, gas prices impact all prices so things may get scary for a while. 

No one needed this stress. No one needed this world conflict right now on top of everything else. It's stupid and stressful and I really hope this ends quickly for everyone's sake.

Cold Again

It was in the 80s last week. Now it's cold as hell again. The cats are all cuddly and sweet again, which is nice. 

I feel better than I did yesterday. We went shopping and paid most of the household bills. My dad and I talked in the afternoon.

I hope this week is good. I need a good week.

Frantic Sunday

My emotions were bad today. I was scared and panicky and on the verge of crying almost all day. I tried to lean into any good emotions or good situations because I knew everything I was feeling wasn't real. 

I mean, it was real, but it wasn't due to anything. I'm fine. Things are fine. I don't need to be irrationally terrified of Spring or Summer. They'll have their issues but presumably, I'll survive them. Things are okay.

Hopefully the endorphin music will help me. 

Saturday

I did editing today and worked on the blanket. My stomach is wonky so I'm trying not to cause it too much issue. 

I've read some really good fics the last few days. Many of them show a lot of promise. I've also been listening to more White Wolf lore, which is fun as hell. 

I didn't organize anything else because we have quite a pile in the back already. Maybe next week.

Slightly More Cleaning

I organized some other stuff today. It looks better and I'm positive about it. I also tried to follow some patterns on my blanket. That was less successful. 

Some of the patterns have worked fine. Other times I keep messing them up until I just decided I'm tired of it and whatever incomprehensible madness I've just created is what stays. 

Pretty sure this is how eldritch gods make things.

Slight Cleaning

I reorganized the shelves next to me. Well, I reorganized them slightly. They feel better, lighter. It's good to have more open space. 

I somewhat feel like I'm not making any headway where the 'deal with the stash of yarn' is concerned. Then again, I've a lot of yarn to work through. 

State of the World

Sometimes I am shocked at how different my worldview is from that of others. Not the weird stuff. I know I think weird stuff. I'm talking about the good and decent stuff. 

Like, I thought we were OVER the idea that you could just go and invade other people's countries. I thought that if you DID try to do that, the decent countries of the world would stop you. I thought we were past this kind of bastardy imperialism. 

Guess I was wrong.