My roommate got a letter on Monday informing him he would be reviewed over something. It made him understandably panicked. This review didn't happen until today. It was over the phone, but even though he didn't have to go anywhere, it was still nervewracking.
When the reviewer realized I would need this done as well, she asked if I just wanted to get mine over with. I was not sure for like half a second, then realized this was for the best. Actually, it was a major perk for me.
This way, I got to deal with the issue without having to suffer through the days of dread leading up to it. Even when you know things are on the level, it's still terrifying when it's something that is this important. I was spared that hell and I'm very thankful for it.
Thursday, January 31, 2019
Tuesday, January 29, 2019
Lights
We have these secondary lights in our living room, small lights that only add illumination to very limited areas. However, when we turned them on last night, I noticed a significant improvement in our evening.
People brush the idea off, but light really does play a huge factor in our emotional well being during the winter. Maybe that stems from generations of people who kept warm by firelight. Maybe not having enough light makes us start to panic because our bodies associate it with warmth. This is more than just the benefits we get from the sun because people find happiness and contentment in flickering candlelight or twinkling Christmas lights.
One lamp in our living room adds brightness behind the TV. It made a vast difference in that corner, one that improved things for both of us. We forgot to turn it on tonight, but I hope we do so in the future. It could help keep the winter blues away.
People brush the idea off, but light really does play a huge factor in our emotional well being during the winter. Maybe that stems from generations of people who kept warm by firelight. Maybe not having enough light makes us start to panic because our bodies associate it with warmth. This is more than just the benefits we get from the sun because people find happiness and contentment in flickering candlelight or twinkling Christmas lights.
One lamp in our living room adds brightness behind the TV. It made a vast difference in that corner, one that improved things for both of us. We forgot to turn it on tonight, but I hope we do so in the future. It could help keep the winter blues away.
Monday, January 28, 2019
Winter Blah
Ughhh. The winter drear is just really getting to me today. It's dark, wet, and cold. It's making me tired. The cure to this seems to be petting cats and drinking warm things. It's the best I can do today.
Sunday, January 27, 2019
Satisfaction
Recently someone posted a link to this blog where a former New Age guru who has turned Christian talked about all the evil things you can find in non-Christian belief systems. The post was predictably fearmongering, stupid, and culturally insensitive but she did make one valid point.
Well, kind of. She never exactly came out and STATED this because as someone who used to make money off New Age merch and now is trying to make money off Christianity, she didn't exactly want to say the truth.
People spend money on things and expect those things to make them feel spiritually whole. However, spending money isn't how feeling whole works. Now this isn't going to be a post where I rant against money. Money is a tool we have to work with. But it's just that. It's just a tool. Spending a lot of it isn't going to help you feel better. It may help to get some of the resources you can use in ways that will get you there, but most people never take those steps.
I'm not going to pretend to be enlightened (by any means) and I'm not going to say I have all the answers to feeling spiritually sound. If you read the blog (hi, 7 faithful readers!) then you know I have my very dark days. I also, however, have very good moments. I have had moments when I felt very complete.
These moments have always centered around creativity. Finishing a project. Even finishing part of it. Completing a task. Solving a problem in a way that used my creative skills. In these moments, I have felt very spiritually whole. I have felt very good.
Now, if my depression is bad, this won't work, but that is a time of chemical imbalance so honestly nothing is working. However, one of the ways I can pull myself out of the funk of depression is to look at things other people have created. That usually gives me the same feeling of soul satisfaction. It restores my faith in what we can accomplish as a species.
So next time you're feeling empty, instead of buying something, make something. If you don't need that something, donate it to someone who does. Allow that feeling of creativity to sustain you. If you have a problem in your life, instead of buying something new to fix it, take inventory of what you already have that could solve the problem for you. You save money AND get to use your skills. Don't feed the system. Feed your soul.
Well, kind of. She never exactly came out and STATED this because as someone who used to make money off New Age merch and now is trying to make money off Christianity, she didn't exactly want to say the truth.
People spend money on things and expect those things to make them feel spiritually whole. However, spending money isn't how feeling whole works. Now this isn't going to be a post where I rant against money. Money is a tool we have to work with. But it's just that. It's just a tool. Spending a lot of it isn't going to help you feel better. It may help to get some of the resources you can use in ways that will get you there, but most people never take those steps.
I'm not going to pretend to be enlightened (by any means) and I'm not going to say I have all the answers to feeling spiritually sound. If you read the blog (hi, 7 faithful readers!) then you know I have my very dark days. I also, however, have very good moments. I have had moments when I felt very complete.
These moments have always centered around creativity. Finishing a project. Even finishing part of it. Completing a task. Solving a problem in a way that used my creative skills. In these moments, I have felt very spiritually whole. I have felt very good.
Now, if my depression is bad, this won't work, but that is a time of chemical imbalance so honestly nothing is working. However, one of the ways I can pull myself out of the funk of depression is to look at things other people have created. That usually gives me the same feeling of soul satisfaction. It restores my faith in what we can accomplish as a species.
So next time you're feeling empty, instead of buying something, make something. If you don't need that something, donate it to someone who does. Allow that feeling of creativity to sustain you. If you have a problem in your life, instead of buying something new to fix it, take inventory of what you already have that could solve the problem for you. You save money AND get to use your skills. Don't feed the system. Feed your soul.
Friday, January 25, 2019
Just our Luck
The hand-me-down tv we were given has decided to die. I have Christmas money left so we're going to get another one. I'm not happy about this, but I guess it's always the luck of the draw when you get a used product....or even a new one, actually. Sigh
Thursday, January 24, 2019
Quick Month
It's already the 24th of the month. I'm shocked by that. It's going by so quickly. Normally January seems to last forever, but not this time. Hopefully, the next two months will fly by as well and we'll hit a nice Spring.
I mean, I'm not looking forward to the heat, but last Spring was SO GOOD for me. My mental issues somehow just leveled out and I was mellow and happy for weeks. It was just the best thing. Maybe I can get a repeat of that.
In the meantime, the blanket is going well. Tomorrow we have some errands and I need to do some folding of things. I'm hoping for a good night's sleep under the former electric blanket to help me handle all the Friday stuff.
I mean, I'm not looking forward to the heat, but last Spring was SO GOOD for me. My mental issues somehow just leveled out and I was mellow and happy for weeks. It was just the best thing. Maybe I can get a repeat of that.
In the meantime, the blanket is going well. Tomorrow we have some errands and I need to do some folding of things. I'm hoping for a good night's sleep under the former electric blanket to help me handle all the Friday stuff.
Wednesday, January 23, 2019
Blip
Quick post. It's cold and I'm very tired. I have a lot of thoughts swirling around, ones that will lead to posts soon, but not tonight. Tonight, I just need to relax and recover some strength.
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