Winter Blah

As much as I hate summer for trying to kill me, winter tries to kill me in different ways. This year it's planning on shoving ice at us. Puke.

The ice is going to start on Wednesday night. Looks like our best bet is to do our usual Friday shopping on Wednesday before all that mess starts. Normally we go out and run errands on the 3rd, but as that is Thursday, we'll be waiting on that as well. No bills are due that day or near that day, so it can wait until the ice/snow/hell melts. 

I see no reason to be unsafe about this. No one needs to end up in the hospital with a broken bone and wait forever for a bed to be freed up. It's not worth the risk. 

Uninspired

I have this story idea in my head but when I try to write it, it's just a mess. I'm considering writing it as a non-linear narrative but I'm not sure yet. We'll see.

Meanwhile, my new blanket progresses, if slowly. The dark of the year isn't making me sad but it's certainly eating away my creative spirit. 

Good Saturday

I spent the day knitting and reading. What can be better than that? I talked to my friends, worked on stuff, and nuzzled cats. Bliss!

Beautiful day.

Pleasantly Surprised

I finally saw Joker. It was a difficult movie to watch, but riveting. I loved it. I felt like he really achieved transformation into the kind of crazy that would be needed to become Joker.

It wasn't canon and wasn't meant to be. I think people get too hung up on canon anyway. Art should evolve. Art should be examined in different ways to reveal new depths to it. It's one of our strengths as a people and to deny that is to deny our creativity. It won't always be to everyone's taste, but it keeps it from stagnating. 

Joker once said to become what he is, it only takes one bad day. The beautiful thing about this movie is how it examines the opposite of that. It looks at how one can also become Joker over a lifetime of hurt and frustration. I think both are valid. 

The Outside

I had therapy today instead of tomorrow. It will be that way next week as well. 

Covid is horrible and has caused a lot of problems, but sometimes the circumstances around it work out in people's favor. For instance, it is a lot easier for me to negotiate where I will have therapy. Right now, we're either doing it on the phone or at the park. 

The park was my chosen location. I love the park. It has a massive pond and lots of waterfowl. The geese are evil (and they have some evil duck friends who hang with them), but everything else is lovely and serene. 

It's honestly an ideal location for therapy. 

It Could Happen

People are freaking out that the Amazon show possibly maybe has one of Galadriel's brothers alive and leading the orcs. People keep screaming that this isn't canon...the thing is, it COULD be.  This is how it works.

No one sees Aegnor's body after Dagor Bragolloch. There are reports that he's dead, but no one can confirm.

Aegnor said he was going to wait for his mortal love and never leave Mandos to be re-embodied. No one in Mandos may have known about this and all of his family is just going to assume he stays there. Again, no real confirmation of where he is. He could have been captured.

Sauron has a nasty habit of using people's loved ones against them. He could have figured out that this elf lord was in love with a mortal woman and captured Andreth's soul before it could leave for wherever mortals go.

Aegnor loved her completely. If Sauron had him captured and showed him that he could torture Andreth's soul if he didn't obey, I bet Aegnor would have done what Sauron wanted.

So he wouldn't be EVIL exactly, but certainly on the villain side and capable of causing a lot of problems.

End of the World

I keep seeing these posts on Facebook about people losing loved ones to Covid. I keep seeing posts about people taking loved ones to the hospital and not knowing where things will end up. I keep seeing more worry, more fear, more heartbreak. 

This isn't stopping. I'm not sure it's ever stopping. 

I don't want to die of Covid. Or, at least, if I DO die of Covid, I want it to be the kind where it finally mutates to killing you instantly. I don't want to be in the hospital for months. I don't want to be sick for months. Just....infected and then death. I hate that I feel like that's a good option now.