Perspective

Been watching Rupaul's DR season 5 for the first time since it aired. This has been kind of trippy. Quite a few of the queens on this season are very famous and it's been interesting to revisit them from when they looked so young. Especially Jinkx. Jinkx looks so little.

But you know, the person who stood out for me the most on the rewatch was Roxxxy Andrews. The first time through, Roxxxy just seemed like a bully. I did not like her because I was so firmly on Jinkx's side. It felt like a replay of the pageant queen versus comedy queen war of season 4.

But knowing ahead of time that Jinkx will win, I was able to watch Roxxxy with open eyes. I was able to see her beauty and charm. I was able to more understand her frustration. Honestly, Roxxxy probably could have won had she gotten out of her own way. She was right about a lot of things. She tried very hard in challenges, even when it was deeply out of her comfort zone. And of the final three, she did the best at all the challenges in that last competitive episode.

So, again, this is a case of someone self-sabotaging because the focused more on another contestant than they did on just trying to do their best. Instead of making their reality TV narrative about their own struggle, they became a villain to be defeated in someone else's narrative. I really think if Roxxy would have carved a storyline that revolved around her pushing herself no matter what, she would have won that season.

So yeah, do not focus on other people when it comes to achieving your goals. Focus on you.  Paying attention to other people in your field, fretting about what they're accomplishing, worried about if you measure up......all of that is just energy taken away from the work toward your own achievements. Ignore them. Focus on you.