The Unexpected Issue

I was ready to give up on the new med, but then yesterday I noticed my pain levels were less. I think the new drug is helping me to sleep better, which, of course, is making it easier to wander around and be in less pain. That was pretty unexpected, but it's very, very nice. Needless to say, I'm going to stick with the new med for a while longer.

Today I didn't have any of the nausea issues. I was also able to hold it together through quite a few intense moments and be objective about what people were saying. Maybe this will actually help me to even out.

Side Effects

I scratched off what I thought was a bit of dry skin and it's been bleeding ever since. I have no idea what I did to anger this small part of my body, but it's doing some serious protesting. I put bag balm over it to stop the bleeding but that isn't even working. Hopefully, it will stop on its own soon.

I had some more nausea today. It didn't last as long but it still wasn't fun. If this continues, I will not continue with this medicine. I'm fairly certain it was the reason behind the sickness today and probably yesterday as well. I certainly don't need that during December. Things are hard enough this month as it is.

Anyway, I think I'll try to get some sleep. I'm worn out and I have a lot of things I have to deal with for the rest of the month. Sigh.

Documentation

For a while, I may use the blog to document any side effects/results I'm seeing from the new happy meds. Today I had some nausea, but that might have been due to the light I was trying to focus on so I could read something. So I'm not sure which it was.

Anyway, aside from that, I had a pretty good day. I'd decided last week not to go to therapy and I'm glad I did. I needed the rest and I needed the low-key day.

I Want a New . . .

I started my new meds today. I didn't really expect to see any changes and I didn't. It will probably be closer to the end of the month before I notice anything. I hope this works out well. It's always scary when you start any kind of medication that may affect your brain chemistry functions. I'll do my best to note any changes as I continue to blog.

Tulsa Appointment

When they told me I had a new doctor a few appointments back, I was super nervous about it. I felt relieved when I saw his nurse the first time and relieved when I saw a sub doctor the second time. I'd built up this whole image of some really unpleasant dude in my head. It was seriously wrong.

My new doctor is great. He's funny and personable. He was quite compassionate and listened to me. He seemed proud of my progress in the various areas where I've tried to make progress. It was meant a lot to me.

Anyway, needless to say, the appointment as well as it could, given what I have to endure. My best friend was a great help in not only driving me up there but keeping me distracted and sane. My roommate was great because I know I live in a calm, peaceful home and could come home to that. I'm a lucky woman.

Inklings

Tomorrow is the preparation day for going to the Cancer Doctor. I'm doing my best not to be nervous about it. Honestly, I'm doing my best to just pretend like it isn't happening to me. I'll just go through the motions until it's over with. That's how I've done all of this ordeal with cancer stuff. Just remove me from the situation and let it happen.

I also put off starting the new Happy Meds until after this trip. I don't see the point in rolling the dice about side effects when I'm nowhere near home to even deal with them. Beyond that and showing up on time, there isn't much I can do.

December

The last month of the year has arrived again. Soon it will be my birthday again. Before that, I have to deal with a doctor's appointment and various social engagements. I'm going to try to make the best of it.

As for my household, our major holiday activity has already started. My roommate and I have a tradition of watching holiday cartoons together. It's something we both dearly love. If we don't see the ones we want, perhaps we can find them online and watch them over the Roku.

The holiday specials mean a lot to us. It reminds us of being kids, but comforts us to know the chaos of childhood has passed. I mean, the chaos of adulthood is here, but that's a whole other story.

Anyway, hello December. Please be kind to everyone.