Fury Road Analysis

I stumbled on this 8 part Youtube series over women in action films and how Fury Road moves beyond the tropes to create something new. The first part discusses how we meet the main characters of the film and how empathy is built (or not built) for them. Then it goes into the various types of roles for women one usually finds in action films. Finally, it discusses the over-reaching message that Fury Road gives.

To my mind, the conclusion is the most thought-provoking part.  It's a simple idea, but for some sad reason, radical at the same time. The idea is that humans should be treated like humans. All of us possess the aspects usually doled out by society as 'masculine' or 'feminine' when, in truth, we are ALL capable of violence, healing, caring, hating, defending, destroying, loving, manipulating, and everything else that runs the gambit of human action and emotion.

If you have some time, the series is certainly worth the watch.

Goodbye Chair

I'm one of those people who emotionally invests in objects. I don't know why. Things have meaning to me. This whole process of changing chairs was stressful. It cost money and it had to be handled by my roommate. I'm thankful he did it, but I also feel bad that he had to. I feel like a burden, though I guess that is something to unpack another time.

I've had this chair as my primary sitting chair since I moved into Gran's house. This chair has been with me through a lot of things. This chair held me when I was recovering from surgeries. This chair was my shelter when I would feel frightened. It witnessed my anger. It was part of my dancing (possibly helped lead to the chair's end).  This is where I ate my meals, laughed with friends, created things.

Now the chair is broken and will go away. Part of me feels horrible about that, like I'm betraying the chair. I could honestly cry about it, though I know there's no choice here. It's broken. It can't be kept.

So, goodbye chair. You held me faithfully for many years. Thank you for seeing me through so much. Thank you for all you gave to me. Thank you for helping me. You will be missed and remembered.

Rough Morning

The chair that my roommate fixed has broken again. It's broken in a place that will require extensive repair, assuming that even works.

The best option would be to get a new chair, but that will be expensive.

I feel very fat and very poor.

October So Far

Pros

• Plans have been made to celebrate Fall.
• I'm knitting.
• The Halloween decorations are up.

Cons

• It's hot and muggy.
• My allergies are a nightmare.
• When it isn't hot, it's pouring rain.
• We still have to have the yard mowed.

So far, cons are winning. Blah.

So Awful of a Night

Last night was really one for the books. We had this update that lasted almost three hours. Seriously, it was past 3 AM before I was in bed. My computer ran it faster than my roommate's did, but he started earlier so we ended about the same time.

Oh but even better? My chair broke. Normally I would feel internalized fat shame for this, but I won't. This chair is like from the 1980s. The fact that it's held together this long is astounding. Plus, my roommate, who is rather handy, managed to fix it. This meant we had hammering and drilling happening at past 1 in the morning but again I'm not feeling bad about it as our neighbors burn their leaves and try to kill us.

Just to be on the safe side I started looking for a new chair. I didn't find one but I found a purple loveseat I want to buy to replace the couch! That doesn't help my situation at the moment, but it made me happy. I needed that.

Self Correction

I'm not a super great knitter. People keep telling me it isn't a matter of talent, just a matter of practice and I know they're right. I think it's also a matter of me trying to jump ahead and do more complicated stuff than I should before I really master the basics of the craft.

So I'm trying to fix that. I'm going back to the basics because, honestly, I don't even do those right. There is a primary knit stitch and I do it wrong. I'm trying my best to correct this, but my hands are already trained to do it the other way. We'll see if I can make this work.

It's true of crochet as well. I do everything exactly backward of how I should. I'm not sure if I can correct that because I've been doing that wrong since I was like 20.

There may be hope for fixing the knitting though!

Disappointing October

I was hoping October would be nice, but it's supposed to be hot all week and then start raining. This means that it will be hot and humid. I like my Falls to be crisp and chill. Not this mess.

Because of this, both my roommate and I are having issues with our feet. Swelling, cramps, pain. His gout is threatening to act up and my.....whatever the hell is wrong with my foot is causing it problems. They're nowhere near as bad as they were, but still. Bad.

I sound like some old woman complaining. Probably because I am. Hah!