I've been pretty depressed today. Just down in general. I'm kind of tired of my storyline in Sims and did some stuff to shake it up. I'm not sure that's fair to the characters, but it's what I felt like needed to happen. So here we are.
IRL, my neighborhood is changing. One older lady moved in with family and now all her pretty plants and yard ornaments and ancient dogs are gone. I miss them. It's strange how much these things come to mean to you over time.
The weather isn't too bad right now but it was really humid earlier. It made me feel horrible and a little sick. I'm glad it leveled.
Tuesday, June 30, 2020
Monday, June 29, 2020
The Dust
The Saharan Dust has decided to visit us, you know, along with all the other hell of 2020. It's thicker than one might imagine, though we're not having Dust Bowl going on. Not yet, anyway.
You can see it flicking around in the air. It makes the rain smell odd and it's made our skies darker. It's a strange thing to deal with this while dealing with everything else.
You can see it flicking around in the air. It makes the rain smell odd and it's made our skies darker. It's a strange thing to deal with this while dealing with everything else.
Sunday, June 28, 2020
The Mob
I grew up in church. It was a small church, fairly friendly, and rather supportive of everyone in the community. At least that's how it was when I was growing up. I can't say for certain what happened after I left. When I was young though, we were taught not to judge people with harshness. In fact, not to judge them at all. That wasn't our job.
Did I listen? Nope. In fact, one of the reasons I left religion was because I'd become such a judgemental and harsh person. That isn't who I wanted to be. Over the years, on occasion, you'll notice I slip back into that. On this blog, I can be really judgy. Again, though, that isn't who I want to be. I know the damage that can do.
One of the reasons I really try to NOT do this is because I'm aware that people are struggling with their own internal demons. That isn't to say I wouldn't defend someone if they were being treated poorly or call someone out if they were behaving badly. I would. I would hope I could do it with gentleness, though even as recently as a year ago, I didn't. The thing is, I felt SO justified in my behavior at the time. Now though, I realize it could have been handled in a more mature way.
Someone that I adore recently fell under the pressure of a lot of people condemning them. This person, who is brilliant and beat the odds to get where they are and so, so very charming, also struggles with massive self-doubt and depression. I'm worried they may not make it through this.
No one is born perfect. Not all of us reach the same level of perceived goodness as others. Some of us have a lot of darkness in us. Some of us have tough questions to ask. Some of us are always going to be on the outside of things.
Every day, people struggle with their inner demons. Inside, they are being told 'you're not good enough' and 'you're not deserving' and 'you should be taken away' and 'no one loves you.' When we pile onto people, for whatever their crimes, we're reinforcing those voices. We're a mob with pitchforks.
I know that we want to make the world a better place, but we have to keep in mind that every group of people in history who we look at in horror when they ripped other people to pieces? They also thought they were making the world a better place. While we are busy changing things, I think it's fair that we pause and reflect on how much we may be enjoying the taste of the blood we're letting.
Did I listen? Nope. In fact, one of the reasons I left religion was because I'd become such a judgemental and harsh person. That isn't who I wanted to be. Over the years, on occasion, you'll notice I slip back into that. On this blog, I can be really judgy. Again, though, that isn't who I want to be. I know the damage that can do.
One of the reasons I really try to NOT do this is because I'm aware that people are struggling with their own internal demons. That isn't to say I wouldn't defend someone if they were being treated poorly or call someone out if they were behaving badly. I would. I would hope I could do it with gentleness, though even as recently as a year ago, I didn't. The thing is, I felt SO justified in my behavior at the time. Now though, I realize it could have been handled in a more mature way.
Someone that I adore recently fell under the pressure of a lot of people condemning them. This person, who is brilliant and beat the odds to get where they are and so, so very charming, also struggles with massive self-doubt and depression. I'm worried they may not make it through this.
No one is born perfect. Not all of us reach the same level of perceived goodness as others. Some of us have a lot of darkness in us. Some of us have tough questions to ask. Some of us are always going to be on the outside of things.
Every day, people struggle with their inner demons. Inside, they are being told 'you're not good enough' and 'you're not deserving' and 'you should be taken away' and 'no one loves you.' When we pile onto people, for whatever their crimes, we're reinforcing those voices. We're a mob with pitchforks.
I know that we want to make the world a better place, but we have to keep in mind that every group of people in history who we look at in horror when they ripped other people to pieces? They also thought they were making the world a better place. While we are busy changing things, I think it's fair that we pause and reflect on how much we may be enjoying the taste of the blood we're letting.
Saturday, June 27, 2020
Hot Saturday
Despite my title, it was not hot in a fun way. Is it ever, with me? It was just hot and muggy and blah. I did not like it. All I managed to do was put away clothes I folded days ago and clean the catbox. Beyond that, I just functioned.
My legs are hurting me right now. I think they're shifting due to some stuff I've been working on. It's needed, but it's painful.
My legs are hurting me right now. I think they're shifting due to some stuff I've been working on. It's needed, but it's painful.
Friday, June 26, 2020
The Process
I thought I'd finished my latest video last night, but when I woke up this morning, I knew I needed to add some stuff. The video is typed Winter Chaos and I knew I couldn't leave Winter Fest out and add it to another video. It wouldn't have made sense.
Once I added my Winter Fest stuff, the video was over 35 minutes long. I wasn't happy about THAT either. Videos of that length tend to not get watched all the way through and my major plot twist happens at the end.
I didn't want to redo audio, and I knew I was going to have to if I split it into two videos. I mean, I really did not want to redo audio so that option was out. I also didn't want to just edit out chunks of the video because some of it just wouldn't make sense.
My roommate told me I should just leave it and I'd basically talked myself into that, except.....well, for some reason, my editing program decided it didn't want to edit the whole thing together. I took that as a sign and considered other options.
Finally it dawned on me that I could speed through my two largest sections! I cut two sections well over 7 minutes each down to less than 30 seconds. Neither really required narrative (not really) and both worked better at speed. You still get to see my process without being bored in the meantime.....hopefully.
I recut the other bits and moved a segment, but honestly, I think the flow is far better now. We still get the full story of Byron's winter without the whole thing lagging in the middle. Problem solved.
Once I added my Winter Fest stuff, the video was over 35 minutes long. I wasn't happy about THAT either. Videos of that length tend to not get watched all the way through and my major plot twist happens at the end.
I didn't want to redo audio, and I knew I was going to have to if I split it into two videos. I mean, I really did not want to redo audio so that option was out. I also didn't want to just edit out chunks of the video because some of it just wouldn't make sense.
My roommate told me I should just leave it and I'd basically talked myself into that, except.....well, for some reason, my editing program decided it didn't want to edit the whole thing together. I took that as a sign and considered other options.
Finally it dawned on me that I could speed through my two largest sections! I cut two sections well over 7 minutes each down to less than 30 seconds. Neither really required narrative (not really) and both worked better at speed. You still get to see my process without being bored in the meantime.....hopefully.
I recut the other bits and moved a segment, but honestly, I think the flow is far better now. We still get the full story of Byron's winter without the whole thing lagging in the middle. Problem solved.
Thursday, June 25, 2020
The Muse
You know, a lot of the time, I'm depressed and that sucks. But other times, like right now, I am not depressed and the best thing about that is how I have my muse back. I have inspiration and plans and plots. It's great.
I was able to work an accident that happened in my Sim story into a plot point that turned things around for my protagonist. I was so happy I could do this.
I just feel so good right now. I really do.
I was able to work an accident that happened in my Sim story into a plot point that turned things around for my protagonist. I was so happy I could do this.
I just feel so good right now. I really do.
Wednesday, June 24, 2020
Assessment of June
We have about a week of June left and I have to say, I am very happy with it. For the most part, it's been pleasant. There were a few days when I wasn't happy, but for most of the month, it's been really lovely.
It's also been a month of unrest and instability. I honestly thought our Covid cases in Oklahoma would be over by now, but we're almost at 3000 active cases now. Just today, we went up another 469 people. The crazy thing is, everyone is acting like it's over and it most certainly, certainly is not over.
I found out today my medical supply provider is moving out of my town. It will take them over an hour to get to me if I have an emergency breakdown of my equipment. I'm not happy about that, but what can I do?
With things like pandemics and uncertainly, sometimes you just have to go with the flow.
It's also been a month of unrest and instability. I honestly thought our Covid cases in Oklahoma would be over by now, but we're almost at 3000 active cases now. Just today, we went up another 469 people. The crazy thing is, everyone is acting like it's over and it most certainly, certainly is not over.
I found out today my medical supply provider is moving out of my town. It will take them over an hour to get to me if I have an emergency breakdown of my equipment. I'm not happy about that, but what can I do?
With things like pandemics and uncertainly, sometimes you just have to go with the flow.
Tuesday, June 23, 2020
The Sims Week Challenge
I did a challenge with my sims where I had a full family of 8 sims (two parents, two teens, two children, two toddlers) and I leave them on fast mode for a week. This is a Sims week, so about three hours or so of real-time. I could prompt them to do things (doesn't work well) and I'm to just see what happens.
My family consisted of Randy Harvest (named for the meat plant I'm growing in another Save), his wife Leopard Print Harvest, teens Huntin and Gamblin, children Alkerhall and Tabacca, and toddlers Worms and Maskita. They lived in a 100 tile trailer with enough beds so everyone could sleep in one (and yet, people so often did not sleep in the beds). I had two bathrooms in the house, plus an outdoor shower and a toilet sitting in the yard. Oh, I also placed a bathtub in the yard when I remembered that toddlers can't be bathed in the showers.
Honestly, everything went mostly fine until the last couple of days. Then Gamblin died in the pool, which caused the Grim Reaper to glitch a little. Then Randy died, Worms and Maskita (now children) died of heat exhaustion. I really have no idea how Alkerhall died but he died too.
It was a fun challenge, despite the massive death count. I'll edit through the footage and post it this weekend.
My family consisted of Randy Harvest (named for the meat plant I'm growing in another Save), his wife Leopard Print Harvest, teens Huntin and Gamblin, children Alkerhall and Tabacca, and toddlers Worms and Maskita. They lived in a 100 tile trailer with enough beds so everyone could sleep in one (and yet, people so often did not sleep in the beds). I had two bathrooms in the house, plus an outdoor shower and a toilet sitting in the yard. Oh, I also placed a bathtub in the yard when I remembered that toddlers can't be bathed in the showers.
Honestly, everything went mostly fine until the last couple of days. Then Gamblin died in the pool, which caused the Grim Reaper to glitch a little. Then Randy died, Worms and Maskita (now children) died of heat exhaustion. I really have no idea how Alkerhall died but he died too.
It was a fun challenge, despite the massive death count. I'll edit through the footage and post it this weekend.
Sunday, June 21, 2020
Day of Doing Stuff
Two videos were done today. I did a Sims one and then my nephew and I recorded one for Age of Empires.
It was lovely and cool today. That was very nice. I think it helped in terms of me being able to function. I mean, as well as I ever function. Hah.
It was also Father's Day. I called my dad and sent a FB message to my uncle.
It was lovely and cool today. That was very nice. I think it helped in terms of me being able to function. I mean, as well as I ever function. Hah.
It was also Father's Day. I called my dad and sent a FB message to my uncle.
Saturday, June 20, 2020
The Event in Tulsa
It cooled down, which is nice. Today was rather anxiety-inducing because Trump was in Tulsa and it could have gotten ugly. So far, it hasn't. There was a peaceful BLM march in my hometown today. It looks like everyone wore masks and stayed away from each other, which is good.
I fear the coming months will have more situations like this. The political climate in our country is so charged right now. It's worse than I've ever seen it.
We continue to get numbers of over 300 a day from the Covid tests. This is worse than when it started, unfortunately, people have gotten complacent about it.
I fear the coming months will have more situations like this. The political climate in our country is so charged right now. It's worse than I've ever seen it.
We continue to get numbers of over 300 a day from the Covid tests. This is worse than when it started, unfortunately, people have gotten complacent about it.
Thursday, June 18, 2020
The Sleep Struggle
Neither my roommate nor I slept well last night. I need that to change tonight. I need sleep and lots of it. Stupid humidity is getting bad and I hate that. Seriously do.
Wednesday, June 17, 2020
Facebook Needs an Eyerolling React
I just can't with Facebook right now. I'm probably going to have to go on a massive blocking spree. It seems that a lot of people out there, very clearly, think that in the Color Purple, Sophia just should have humbly thanked that bitch for the job offer and gratefully taken it. They understand no subtext and no nuance of any given situation. It's setting my teeth on edge. Idiots.
Instead of just automatically getting offended that someone else finds something offensive, more than likely when you haven't even given that thing more than one or two seconds of your thought in all of your life, maybe, just maybe you could have empathy for their position and listen. I find this certainly interesting from people who are angry that someone said "Okay Boomer" to them once or called them a Karen. If that upset you, darlings, imagine a whole lifetime of stuff like that.
Instead of just automatically getting offended that someone else finds something offensive, more than likely when you haven't even given that thing more than one or two seconds of your thought in all of your life, maybe, just maybe you could have empathy for their position and listen. I find this certainly interesting from people who are angry that someone said "Okay Boomer" to them once or called them a Karen. If that upset you, darlings, imagine a whole lifetime of stuff like that.
Tuesday, June 16, 2020
The Falling Cat
So we think Tinkerbell is around 16 or 17 now. She is an old kitty who did not live the easiest of lives before we adopted her. She has a rather intense and stubborn personality. She has also developed a habit of falling off things. It isn't a fast fall. It's a slow, kind of lingering fall. Almost like she's pouring herself from one level to a lower one.
Still, it concerns me. She never seems upset or injured, but I worry. She is an elder cat, after all. Maybe I should put pillows on the floor near where she's sleeping. She'd probably land away from them on purpose.
Still, it concerns me. She never seems upset or injured, but I worry. She is an elder cat, after all. Maybe I should put pillows on the floor near where she's sleeping. She'd probably land away from them on purpose.
Notes on Destruction
Sometimes on Top Chef, contestants will make a dish so awful that the judges won't just be disappointed, they'll be offended. One of the comments they often make in situations like this is that the contestant 'disrespected the ingredients,' which, at first, seems odd. After all, the ingredients don't care one way or the other, right? They're dead. However, their death is the point.
We end life to create food. Plant, animal, fungus, it doesn't matter. Life was ended so we could sustain our own. When you cook, you destroy things in order to create something. To do so without mindfulness is disrespectful. There is a long and painful process to get ingredients into our hands.
I try to have a healthy relationship with destruction. As a society, we always view it with horror. We often view it from the position of someone passively watching it. And sometimes, that is how it goes down. I live in Oklahoma. We have a lot of tornadoes that tear through a lot of things.
However, we, all of us, are also destructive. All life is. Destroying is part of our function. Plants destroy things. Bacteria destroys. Anyone who has ever had a puppy knows that animals can destroy things. Destruction is one of our tools to survive.
But as living beings, part of our magic is that we can connect that destruction to new creation. We can weave fabrics, cook meals, build homes. We can take the raw materials left in destruction's wake and make new things. Best of all, we can create things that suit our needs better than the ones that existed before.
In the earlier part of the year, I redecorated my bedroom. I culled nonfunctioning items. I rearranged the closet, the bookshelf, and the math. I deconstructed a desk to make room for other things. I slit material to make curtains. I bought a new bed. There were days when my room looked like utter chaos, but I had a plan. I had a vision. I knew what needed to change and I made that happen.
When something is not working for you, you DO have the right to destroy it. Hell, maybe not just the right, but the obligation, as respect for yourself and those you love, to destroy it. It will look scary for a while. And it will terrify everyone who views destruction from a passive position.
HOWEVER..........
When you begin to dismantle something when you decide it is time to destroy and rebuild, HAVE A PLAN. Not just a vague idea of what you want to happen, but an actual plan. Know what outcomes you want. Have plans and paths to get there. To just destroy mindlessly and leave a mess for someone else to clean up is immature and disrespectful. Moreover, it's dangerous. If you don't rebuild what you destroyed in a way that works for you, someone else will rebuild it....and their way may prove to be worse than what you tore down in the first place.
We end life to create food. Plant, animal, fungus, it doesn't matter. Life was ended so we could sustain our own. When you cook, you destroy things in order to create something. To do so without mindfulness is disrespectful. There is a long and painful process to get ingredients into our hands.
I try to have a healthy relationship with destruction. As a society, we always view it with horror. We often view it from the position of someone passively watching it. And sometimes, that is how it goes down. I live in Oklahoma. We have a lot of tornadoes that tear through a lot of things.
However, we, all of us, are also destructive. All life is. Destroying is part of our function. Plants destroy things. Bacteria destroys. Anyone who has ever had a puppy knows that animals can destroy things. Destruction is one of our tools to survive.
But as living beings, part of our magic is that we can connect that destruction to new creation. We can weave fabrics, cook meals, build homes. We can take the raw materials left in destruction's wake and make new things. Best of all, we can create things that suit our needs better than the ones that existed before.
In the earlier part of the year, I redecorated my bedroom. I culled nonfunctioning items. I rearranged the closet, the bookshelf, and the math. I deconstructed a desk to make room for other things. I slit material to make curtains. I bought a new bed. There were days when my room looked like utter chaos, but I had a plan. I had a vision. I knew what needed to change and I made that happen.
When something is not working for you, you DO have the right to destroy it. Hell, maybe not just the right, but the obligation, as respect for yourself and those you love, to destroy it. It will look scary for a while. And it will terrify everyone who views destruction from a passive position.
HOWEVER..........
When you begin to dismantle something when you decide it is time to destroy and rebuild, HAVE A PLAN. Not just a vague idea of what you want to happen, but an actual plan. Know what outcomes you want. Have plans and paths to get there. To just destroy mindlessly and leave a mess for someone else to clean up is immature and disrespectful. Moreover, it's dangerous. If you don't rebuild what you destroyed in a way that works for you, someone else will rebuild it....and their way may prove to be worse than what you tore down in the first place.
Sunday, June 14, 2020
Sunday Blues Again
It wasn't pleasant today. It wasn't awful, but it wasn't good either. My nerves were pretty frayed because of that and a lot of other things. I managed to edit together about three minutes of footage. So that's something, I guess. Maybe.
I dunno. I just don't anymore. Maybe next week will be better.
I dunno. I just don't anymore. Maybe next week will be better.
Saturday, June 13, 2020
Friendship in the Time of Corona
Tomorrow I should have been with my best friend. I planned on it. But then the numbers went up. A lot of them came out of the area where I was on Tuesday. I felt the same kind of fear I felt when this first started. I don't want to make anyone sick. I mean, I don't want to be sick myself either, but I certainly don't want to infect anyone else.
I know a lot of people have decided this isn't A THING anymore, but I just can't. Even though my grandfather had emphysema and he died from complications related to it, those complications came from pneumonia that he got from a flu that he got from ME. In fact, while he was in the hospital dying, I was trying to recover from the flu and it was just all a mess. I hate hate hate thinking about that time and honestly, the idea of that happening again......well, it just can't. It can't.
Even still, I wish I was there tomorrow. I miss her so much. I miss her kids. Hopefully, the spread will start going down again and things can go back to normal. That NEEDS to happen. This sucks.
I know a lot of people have decided this isn't A THING anymore, but I just can't. Even though my grandfather had emphysema and he died from complications related to it, those complications came from pneumonia that he got from a flu that he got from ME. In fact, while he was in the hospital dying, I was trying to recover from the flu and it was just all a mess. I hate hate hate thinking about that time and honestly, the idea of that happening again......well, it just can't. It can't.
Even still, I wish I was there tomorrow. I miss her so much. I miss her kids. Hopefully, the spread will start going down again and things can go back to normal. That NEEDS to happen. This sucks.
Friday, June 12, 2020
Happy June Friday
Okay, it was GLORIOUS today. Seriously. I know I don't compliment summer that often, but today was grand! It was warm, but not insanely hot. The sun was shining. The flowers were lovely. It was pleasant. I loved it.
My tiger lilies are blooming. The elephant ear is blooming as well. I took a lovely nap with just my tower fan running.
You know what I think part of it is? Well, okay, most of it is the low humidity, but I think the other part is that I have curtains on the lower half of my windows now in my room. This is keeping a lot of heat from really hitting my room and lowering the temp just slightly. That just slightly makes all the difference.
So yes, while I may complain about summer soon, today was great and I'm grateful for it.
My tiger lilies are blooming. The elephant ear is blooming as well. I took a lovely nap with just my tower fan running.
You know what I think part of it is? Well, okay, most of it is the low humidity, but I think the other part is that I have curtains on the lower half of my windows now in my room. This is keeping a lot of heat from really hitting my room and lowering the temp just slightly. That just slightly makes all the difference.
So yes, while I may complain about summer soon, today was great and I'm grateful for it.
Thursday, June 11, 2020
Recovery
I'm doing better today. I folded some towels and I'll finish folding them tomorrow. I also shot a lot of footage for my video. I decided to go another route with it and I like it a lot better now.
It was cool again last night and, again, my blanket was awesome. I need to finish the pillows. I'll work on that tonight as I watch a movie.
I started my scripted part for my new video. I did some nifty tricks on it and it looks really good. I also caught some great people in the dumpster areas. This is gonna be amazing.
It was cool again last night and, again, my blanket was awesome. I need to finish the pillows. I'll work on that tonight as I watch a movie.
I started my scripted part for my new video. I did some nifty tricks on it and it looks really good. I also caught some great people in the dumpster areas. This is gonna be amazing.
Wednesday, June 10, 2020
Blanket
Even though it was hot to the point of me overheating yesterday, it was cold last night. All of my other blankets are put away for the season so I used the new one that I knitted.
Okay, this is the first time I've knitted a blanket this large, so obviously, it's the first time I've ever been able to use my own knitted blanket. It was a neat experience. It's so much lighter than crocheted blankets. The knit was pretty loose in it so the fan was able to still get to me, but at the same time, I was warm.
I think it's going to make a pretty good summer blanket.
Okay, this is the first time I've knitted a blanket this large, so obviously, it's the first time I've ever been able to use my own knitted blanket. It was a neat experience. It's so much lighter than crocheted blankets. The knit was pretty loose in it so the fan was able to still get to me, but at the same time, I was warm.
I think it's going to make a pretty good summer blanket.
Tuesday, June 9, 2020
Ick
I got sick on the way home and it was miserable. When I got home, I stayed sick and I am having trouble recovering from it. So....short post tonight. Hopefully, I'll feel better soon.
Tulsa Day
I've not blogged in a couple days. Nothing is wrong. I've just been occupied with another project. I would think 'I need to blog' and then the thought would just slip away. I'll try to do better.
We're going to Tulsa today. My roommate has an appointment and I'm along for the ride. I think my role is basically to make sure money is ready for the tolls. Hah.
Anyway, I completed a big video project. It wasn't a LONG project, but it involved a lot of different cuts and scenes and I ended up having to splice to videos together to make the whole thing work. It has one flaw in it that I didn't catch for some reason, but it's just a second's worth of flaw,so, overall, I'm okay with it.
We're going to Tulsa today. My roommate has an appointment and I'm along for the ride. I think my role is basically to make sure money is ready for the tolls. Hah.
Anyway, I completed a big video project. It wasn't a LONG project, but it involved a lot of different cuts and scenes and I ended up having to splice to videos together to make the whole thing work. It has one flaw in it that I didn't catch for some reason, but it's just a second's worth of flaw,so, overall, I'm okay with it.
Saturday, June 6, 2020
So June
It's already muggy. I'm already complaining. I shouldn't. I don't hate all of summer. Just the heat and the bugs and the humidity. Actually, I like a lot of other things about summer. I like the flowers and the pretty green leaves. I like the higher water pressure showers. I love the bright days. Now that I understand about Seasonal Affect Disorder, I also love the fact that the brighter days keep SAD at bay. Summer has its issues, but it also has benefits.
Today we had to turn the AC on. The humidity was putting us in the danger zone if we didn't. Tinkerbell had been hanging out by the windows but now that the AC is on, she's back to hanging near me. Another benefit.
I hope your June is bright and sunny and lovely.
Today we had to turn the AC on. The humidity was putting us in the danger zone if we didn't. Tinkerbell had been hanging out by the windows but now that the AC is on, she's back to hanging near me. Another benefit.
I hope your June is bright and sunny and lovely.
Friday, June 5, 2020
Sims 4 Gets Trashy
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| Katrina Caliente at her best. |
But I have to say, my favorite thing is that sims can now dumpster dive. Instead of this being limited to the various freegans around, basically any Sim can and will do this. Meaning, the richest, the most famous, the most glamourous sims around can be found face down in a dumpster. This is awesome!
Thursday, June 4, 2020
Auntship
My nephew is grounded. He was allowed one privilege today and used it to talk to me. That was really touching, like I wasn't even sure that I deserved that.
I'm really lucky. Most of the time when kids become teens, they grow distant from their families. I'm actually getting this chance to be close to him during this time. That's pretty amazing.
I'm really lucky. Most of the time when kids become teens, they grow distant from their families. I'm actually getting this chance to be close to him during this time. That's pretty amazing.
Wednesday, June 3, 2020
And Another One
One of my dear friends left Facebook because of the madness and attacks. That is the second friend to do so in a matter of months. Both of these people were sane, reasonable voices. Both left because extremists refused to leave them alone while they were being reasonable. It seems like the masses want to silence anyone who would bring rationality to the table.
I'll miss him. It shouldn't have come to this.
I'll miss him. It shouldn't have come to this.
Tuesday, June 2, 2020
Unknowns
I'm nauseous again. I'm not sure if that is heat or stress or grief or what. Allergies? Who knows? The Sims update didn't come out today. They delayed it until tomorrow which makes me wonder if the pack will be delayed as well. Hopefully not, but, again, who knows?
I deflead Tinkerbell and now I think she hates me again. She's avoiding me and staying well across the room. Maybe she'll come back in time. Maybe not. Again, who knows?
There are so many unknowns right now. It seems like every small bit of the stability we had as a nation is gone. All of our civility seems to be gone. I'm not sure about anything anymore.
I deflead Tinkerbell and now I think she hates me again. She's avoiding me and staying well across the room. Maybe she'll come back in time. Maybe not. Again, who knows?
There are so many unknowns right now. It seems like every small bit of the stability we had as a nation is gone. All of our civility seems to be gone. I'm not sure about anything anymore.
Monday, June 1, 2020
Start of June
It feels surreal that it's already June. It's like months are missing. At the same time, it feels like we've been in this nightmare for years.
Despite that, the first day of June was good. We did a shopping trip and I messed with Sims. The new pack comes out at the end of the week and I wanted to have a Sim ready and skilled up for play. I think just diving into the game let me distress a little.
It wasn't too hot today. For quite a few years now, we've had to have the AC on even before June started. This was a nice break.
Despite that, the first day of June was good. We did a shopping trip and I messed with Sims. The new pack comes out at the end of the week and I wanted to have a Sim ready and skilled up for play. I think just diving into the game let me distress a little.
It wasn't too hot today. For quite a few years now, we've had to have the AC on even before June started. This was a nice break.
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