Sick

Everyone is sick and everything is awful. That's all for now.

Another Cold Day

It was hellishly cold last night. Like . . . 5 degrees or something. The house was basically in the low 50s, even with the stoves on. As you can guess, this lead to bad sleep and will probably lead to more bad sleep tonight. This is some unpleasant weather.

In the long list of Things I Wish I'd Finished, I really wish I'd finished my knitted blanket. I think when I finish this baby blanket, I'm going to go back to that one, finish off the line it's on, and call it a throw. As I have more time, I'll add more to it. I am starting to need the warmth.

Speaking of the baby blanket, I'm on the first border of ten stitch and it looks really good. I'm about half way through the third side of this round. It's an unusual blanket, but I like it. I'm doing my best to pour lots of love into it.

My roommate is still ill. This is the third night in a row he's gone to bed really early. I'm hoping he feels better in the coming days. I know this is hard on him.

Things should warm up after today.

Bah Snow

When I went to bed around one, it wasn't snowing. I thought I was safe.I was wrong. When I woke up, we had two inches of snow on the ground. I had to get out in it and that sucked. I didn't fall, but still. I loathe driving in the snow. It makes me nervous and bitchy.

My roommate was the real hero in the situation. He cleared the car of snow, went into the store, handled my bitchiness, and even got us sweets . . . all the while, he was sick. I'm really impressed with how well he handles this kind of weather.

My shoes and socks got wet. I'm pretty sure I'll get chilblains from this. It was so cold outside, we never really managed to get the house warm on the inside. We got it to a level of tolerable, but not really cozy. Thankfully, it should be warmer tomorrow.

Snot Snow Surprises

I am a factory of snot. Seriously, my body should not produce this much snot. I'm just snot, discomfort, and pain. No wonder I disassociate so much. It's something we continuously work on in therapy and something I always come back to having reasons for. My body doesn't offer me a lot in the way of good things so I ignore it. If it wants my attention, it should be less of a hating ass bitch.

So far, 2017 is proving to be full of surprises. One small one, though still odd, was the fact that my grandfather called me yesterday. It wasn't to see how I was doing or anything (he didn't even ask) it was just to find out some information about skin cream. Still, weird that he called.

It's possible that we may wake up to snow. I really hope not, but I'm not thinking I'll get my way. The sky had that Snow! look to it all day and it is frighteningly cold. The cats won't be happy. No one will. I certainly won't be happy.

Maybe it will be the cause of less snot.

First Change of the Year

Well, there is a new development with therapy. The office where I go is going to close down. This isn't surprising. Our state is giving less and less money to mental health every day. It's only going to get worse.

My therapist is going to have to find a new place. In the meantime, we'll have to find other places to meet. It's going to be weird. Maybe this will be a good thing. We'll see.

Post Holiday Blues

The year is over. The holidays are over. Everything is starting to go back to the usual grind. I should find that comforting, I suppose, but I don't. I think maybe the outside of my head cold is a dive down into depression again. I'm really in the blues right now, just trying to push myself to move forward. All in all, I really don't want to.

Despite the depression trying to happen, I did start on a baby blanket that I need to have finished my next month. It's looking pretty good so far. I screwed up a small bit of it, but it's an easy fix. I don't hate it so far.

Speaking of hating my own work, I made a hat last week and thought the concept was good. When I was finished, I really didn't like it. As days went by, I liked it even less. However, while I was out earlier, I decided that it looks better on me than it does just laying there on the table.

I did a small bit of organizing around me. I need to do more. That may have to wait until the weekend.

The First Day of 2017

So far, so good.

We went to my best friend's house for lunch. We had black-eyed peas and other really good things.  We listened to music, had good conversation, and laughed a lot. After that, I got yarn!

Once we got home, we had a good evening. Our dinner was great (leftovers from yesterday). TV was fun and I listened to some more great music.

Now, as you know, I tend to see the first day of the year as kind of a predictor of how the year will go. There are some things I try to do to ensure good outcomes, but a lot of it is out of my control.

With that in mind:

Bad Signs were as follows . . .

I was in some pain today. I was also snotty. My roommate didn't feel that well either.

We only found half of the things we went shopping for.

We almost got hit by another car (although this is kind of neutral. We ALMOST got hit, but we managed to avoid it).

One of the cats threw up (although cat puke is always an aspect of life with cats, even on a good year).

I struggled with reaching some stuff. I also forgot a few things.

Good Signs were as follows . . .

I finished a project! Finishing a project is always a good sign on the First Day.

I reached out to some people to ensure communication with them and they responded back.

I was shown a lot of love and affection.

I learned a new concept.

I saw a new color and fell in love with it.

Other than pain, my body functioned pretty well.

But you know, sometimes this predictor stuff goes exactly the opposite of how you might think. In any event, it's a new year. Ready or not.