Friday, May 3, 2019

Sad Spring

As you may recall, last Spring was amazing for me. I was mellow and happy. Things in my brain were evened out and nothing seemed to be all that awful. This year, as I have mentioned before, is not turning out like that.

This Spring has given me a great deal of physical pain, depression, and moments of fairly acute anxiety. Yesterday I was anxious over glitter. GLITTER! Not just a little bit either. My mood tends to go from blue to black very quickly and while I'm trying my best to be aware of that, the whole process is exhausting.

I really wanted my mellow to return. It sucks that it didn't. Even if it didn't return, it would be nice not to be in shaking dark mode for days on end. Blah.

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