Yeah the depression is hitting hard. I spent quite a lot of last night trying to justify existence and today I finished a project and could only see the flaws. The animosity my mental state causes over all of my creations is one of the many reasons I never had children. I was terrified I'd just hate them as an extension of the seething anger my depression causes in all things connected to me.
I really should have expected this. I basically drained my whole system of happy meds during the worst part of the virus. It will probably take me a month or so to build back my resistance.
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