Dream Friend

Content Warning: Discussion of suicide.

I have a friend from high school who killed himself about ten or so years ago. It was a shock. I think about his death quite often and I wonder what led up to it. As someone who lives with suicidal ideation and has a pretty nasty battle with it from time to time, I get it. I know how this happens. It's just difficult to come to terms with.

I dream about him sometimes. The dreams are always emotional. It's always him finding better things in life. Last night I dreamed he was playing guitar. The whole room cheered for him. I remember hugging him and telling him I was proud of him. It seems cheesy now that I'm awake, but it was really important in the dream.