I'm not good at being around other humans. In fact, I really suck at it. It's one of the reasons why I feel pretty happy about my ability to entertain myself. People write a lot about introverts. I'm not really an introvert. I'll talk, as long as there aren't assholes who are talking over me. I can be entertaining around the other humans. I just kind of hate it.
Whenever I'm around other people, I just feel drained. I feel exposed and violated. I feel scrutinized by them when they keep asking me questions or making comments on what I'm doing. It's like I can't even sit and just BE without feeling like I'm being watched. Judged. And while I know this happens every holiday season, while I know I try my best to just roll with it and not let it rip me to pieces, after every time I have to spend time with the other humans, there is always days of this.
I honestly don't know how people handle it.
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